do you ever feel like you're always waiting??

always waiting for things to happen or time to pass..

the worst is when there's nothing you can do but wait..

at this moment in time i am currently waiting for this week to pass by..a week from today, i will be at home celebrating the joyous of the christmas holidays in my terribly missed city and my family who i haven't seen for months..

on the other hand..i don't know how it happens, but it does

life juss passes you by

like one second..you're here..and then the next second, you're there..

like right now, i may be desparately waiting for this week to be over..but in a week, i'm gonna wonder how it all passed by so quickly..

strange eh?

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Waiting for my real life to begin-Colin Hay

Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
I'll stand on the bow, feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down down down, on me

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart and let the light shine in
But don't you understand, I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

When I awoke today, suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams, I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path, and up this cobbled lane
I'm walking in my old footsteps, once again

And you say, just be here now
Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin
Let me throw one more dice, I know that I can win
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon
And I'll check my machine, there's sure to be that call
It's gonna happen soon, soon, soon

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart, let the light shine in
Don't you understand I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

the things we do..

my question is why do we do bad things? whether it be something bad for us or bad for someone else..why do we do it?

we know that it goes against good and perhaps we even know that there will be consequences..and yet we still endulge in these bad things..

i do plenty of things i know are bad for me..my bad habits include but are not limited to my high consumption of chocolate as a cure to a stressful day, participation in social events when i should be doing elsewise, engagement in not so good activities..

and why do i do these things? for the short term euphoria i suppose..but in the long run, what does it leave me with? stress, anxiety, worry, regretfulness??..sometimes

but in the end, the question is whether it is worth it? well, if it wasn't, would we still be doing these bad things?

maybe..maybe we hope and wish and have faith that all the good things we do..whether it be good for ourselves or good for other people..will balance out the bad..maybe..juss maybe..