we all have things we don't quite like about ourselves..you know, those little flaws that we wish we could change but we can't.. my current thing i wish i would change about myself is my ability to juss let things happen without over-analyzing or rationalizing it out for example, when something good happens, i'm happy..but then i get worried..i get worried because when too many good things happen, it's like a yellow caution tape gets wrapped around my brain that says 'something bad is gonna come along soon' it's like when something seems so easy and you think to yourself 'it can't be this easy, what's the catch?' i can't seem to get these thoughts out of my head long enough to enjoy the moment..instead, i am stuck in the midst of thinking about what happens next..so i can't fully live in the moment.. i wish i could..i wish i could juss let things happen..let things unfold and juss deal with them as they come without anticipating what happens next..
so much for coming back all relaxed..being thrown back into the midst of school, studying for exams and writing papers has made reading week seem like ages ago.. it feels like school is this never ending world that you never fully step out of..then again, as much as i want the school part of school to be over, i'm gonna terribly miss the student part.. oh well..i suppose summer is just around the corner and that shall provide a much needed break
