silent freakout

maybe i've been studying too long but i am currently having a little panic attack about virtually nothing..it's turning me into a bit of a nutcase

i'm trying to do a couple things at once..

a) i hafta pack all my things cuz my subletter is moving in tomorrow..it should be simple b/c i don't have that much stuff..yet it's stressful..i was packing up the kitchener and dropped spaghetti sauce everywhere..then my vanilla bottle exploded..both quite disgusting to clean up..my pile of laundry that can't be done til later is starting to bother me and i'm running out of space to put the things i've already packed

b) studying..prolly the most important thing i have to do but i can't focus..the material is pretty easy, i juss need to take the time to sit and learn it but for some reason, my brain has gone on holidays..this is not good because i still need it for 7 more days

c) move..this isn't really til tomorrow, but it's annoying me already..i'm gonna be living out of a backpack for a week..it's difficult cuz i hafta pack everything i need to bring with me and make sure i don't accidentally pack something with the other stuff

i am so overwhelmed (about pretty much nothing) that i can't breathe properly..so now i am sitting on my bedroom floor surrounded by cardboard boxes because my brain has decided to not let me use it..ahhhhhh..today is also supposed to be something special but i can't think about that because i have a bazillion other things on my mind but in the back of my head, i wish i could..it would be nice

ahhhhhhhhhh