my internal conflict

sometimes i wake up and i feel like someone has decided that today i must be an adult..

it's a strange feeling to wake up to because i feel like i hafta be ultra responsible, ultra decisive for myself and ultra independent..

not that i normally don't like these things but being told to do something is always different than wanting to do it yourself..

other days i wake up feeling like myself..i feel free to do as i wish..this feeling doesn't come as much as it used to..

but see, it's a bit of a dilemma cuz sometimes i like being an adult..or at least i envision it as pretty cool =)