I was talking to a friend the other day and we got into a discussion about what we do when we have general life problems or juss feel not the happiest..we determined that we rely on comfort..it's things like talking to a specific person, eating chocolate, watching tv, talking a walk or something that juss lets you relax and makes you happy again.. then she said, "but what if you were so happy that you don't need things like that?" I've never actually thought about this before..but now that I have, I don't think it's possible..you can't be so happy that you don't need your comfort things or someone to talk to..because if that were the case, then life would be perfect..and that alone is not possible..right? =)
so i've always been a supporter of the phrase 'the things you want will come to you when you are ready to handle them'.. the hard thing about this is that sometimes you can't do anything to prepare yourself and the only thing left to do is wait.. waiting = patience.. patience = a virtue that few of us really have but you know what? if you try it, it really works..it might takes days or years or a whole lifetime of patience, but if you truly want it, it'll come because afterall, things hafta work out and be okay..they really do have to =)
It's about 9pm and i get on the subway and take a seat in a nearly empty car. Then, this strange man comes in and stands right in front of me. He's not too old, about mid 30s i'd say. He's holding a plate of what looks like a variety of cheeses. He holds out the plate to me and says, "would you like some cheese?" I politely decline, hoping he'll take the hint and leave me alone. To my dismay, he continues to stand RIGHT in front of me. At this point in time I avoid eye contact and start looking around. He then asks again, "are you sure you don't want any chesse?" Again, I politely say, "no thanks." Then he goes, "is there anything else I can get you?" Now i'm getting slightly annoyed this silly man won't leave me alone. The train starts to move and this man is still standing RIGHT in front of me when the whole car is practically empty. While he is still attempting to offer me cheese, he has also moved on to offering me a newspaper, a plastic bag and his hat. Then, thank goodness, we get to the next stop and this girl, late 20s or so, comes over to us. She had been on the subway the whole time and witnessed this stupid man pestering me. She sits down beside me and pleasantly exclaims, "oh hey! How are you? How was your weekend?" We then pretend we know each other and engage in a pretty plausible conversation. The man finally decides i am not interested and walks away. A feeling of relief flows through my head. The girl then says, "I see this guy all the time, he's probably harmless but kinda annoying." We laugh and talk about riding on the subway at night and meeting weirdos. It was odd cuz for all i know, she could've been some psycho too. But nevertheless, I was glad she was there.
We ended up getting off at the same station and parting ways with a, "have a good night."
i'm really anxious for that september to come where i will not be going back to school..but the more times it does come right now, the faster the years seem to pass by to sum up my summer i would have to say that it was good..some parts went by super fast and others were kinda slow the end of my summer was probably my favourite part of the whole thing..had a fun birthday with old friends..finished up work..went away to the cottage and then on a cruise..all of which were so enjoyable now i'm sitting in my room, back in toronto..i'm trying to anticipate what this year will be like and i really don't know..last year at this time, things were beginning to change and i've become someone almost completely different from then..wonder what it'll be like next year at this time of year..
