sigh..

i can't decide if i'd rather be neutral and content all the time or have happy moments followed by sad moments..

i say this as if i have a say in what happens or how life goes..haha

sometimes when you're super happy, you feel great and everything is good..but then when sometime bad comes up, it juss really really really sucks..

this suckyness has been exacerbated by the fact that it's been so great..

i dunno..i don't like the high and low pattern..but then again, i don't think i'd enjoy the straight line pattern either

sigh.