Diagnosis: chronically dis-satisfied

i mean, how else can i explain it?

i have a great life..i really think i do

-i have amazing, wonderful, thoughtful friends and an incredibly loving and supportive family
-i am finally done school with a great education and the job i've always aspired to start my career with
-i live in a cozy condo in the perfect spot of the city i love
-i allow myself a limitless supply of chocolate to keep me content
-i've had a pet who i loved so much more than i ever thought i could
-i have awesome clothes that look great on me
-i have lovely hair that i can do anything with
-i baked something today and it actually turned out ok
-i have learned to deal with the fact that sometimes it juss has to rain instead of being all sunny and beautiful
-i'm in love and that someone loves me too

i friggin have everything i want and need..

..and yet..i am not 100% where i want to be..

So it's been a year..

in some ways, i can't believe it's been over a year since i've posted..but at the same time, so much has happened that i wonder how it can only be a year...

anyways, i'm writing because i am having one of those days..actually it's more that i'm having more than one of those days..i feel off..it's a weird feeling but basically, things aren't going quite the way i want them to..it's frustrating me a bit..

i always say what goes around comes around and i truly do believe that if bad things happen, good things will be around the corner..because that is how it should be..right?

well i dunno, but i could sure use some happier things..